The universe is sending me messages–and not all of them are happy ones. But the real take-home lesson is worth sharing.
Just today I found out that someone I love deeply has received a terrible diagnosis. She is a courageous forty-year-old woman, a doctor, a mother of three children under the age of ten. We don’t see each other often, but I can say that I have cared about her since I was a child and she was a baby. The devastating news of her illness comes on the heels of other sad news about friends and loved ones over the last few months. My heart keeps breaking. As my mom said today–we did not know we had more tears left, and yet we did. And we shed them liberally and will continue to do so….
Thinking of what my beloved is facing, I am reminded that we all must live our life in this moment because we don’t know how much time we have left on this planet. And we cannot afford to squander even a precious minute.
Life is not about working a few more hours, but about loving and living while being our authentic selves. Life is about hope and grace. Life is about grief and sadness.
At the moment, life is throwing out more questions than answers. I am doing the best I can to “sit in the questions.”
The one take-home lesson is that I must live in the moment, feeling my blood pulse through my veins (probably at an elevated blood pressure level!), embracing my emotions, and growing in wisdom and in love.
I am still working out the details, learning to abandon myself to the sadness, while remembering that there has been joy too. I don’t want to waste any time. Life is here today, in this moment, for me to grasp and grapple with. The waves of sadness alternate with the waves of joy. I don’t want to live a life that I will regret. I want to live with boldness and love. This moment is all I have.
I suspect it is the same for you! Don’t waste a minute…
Life is Amazing! Live well.
Anna Grassini
P.S. For a great article on the regrets, see the Huffington post http://www.huffingtonpost.com/bronnie-ware/top-5-regrets-of-the-dyin_b_1220965.html
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I am very sorry for your pain & your grief and these sorrows in your life.
My life too, has been full of grief, sorrow, loss…for a while.
May you be comforted with GOD’s grace, wisdom & love.
My best wishes and hopeful thoughts go with you. I keep you in my prayers.